Sade
November 12, 2024 at 5:46:02 AM
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https://omotamiadev.nekoweb.org/
I don't really know how to start this message. I don't know you personally, and I might never know who you are. Or, really anything about you. But what I do know, is that I- and many others have been through the exact same thing you have been. And I know it's generic as all hell to hear, and you've probably heard it time and time again, but it's true.
You can't really live until you've died a little. Died in this case, not being literal, but.. "died a little" as in, just how you've felt. Again, I don't know what's happened. I don't know if it was something that someone did to you that made you feel this way- if it was something you did that you regret- or whatever. But I'm going to talk about those two a little as, they're the most likely.
For the first, you shouldn't let someone else's misdeeds direct your life. I'm not saying to just forget what happened. Because, to be honest, that's impossible. You can't forget the terrible things that have happened. But you need to realize at one point or another, that you can grow from it.
And, if it was the former-
We aren't defined by our mistakes. We are defined by what we do now. We are defined not by what happened in the past. And I believe that everyone- can grow from who they were.
And, even if it wasn't either of those- If it was something different, whatever happened- this one is more of a general thing I want to tell you, personally.
Life can be beautiful, but it's a double edged sword. You can experience amazing, great things, or some of the worst. But that sword can be controlled, but only you can control it. Only you can change the directory of your life. Nobody else. For years, I always was waiting for *someone* to "fix me" or, whatever. And don't get me wrong, someone like a therapist or talking to close friends can help. But in the end, the only person who makes that change, that change that *really* matters, is you. And you need to make that first step. That first step to bettering your life. Whether it's doing a hobby more you enjoy, taking better care of your physical health, whatever it may be you think you've been neglecting from yourself because of these terrible thoughts, I need you to try. Not for me, or some other person. But for yourself.
I don't know if we'll ever meet again, or talk. I could be sending a message into the wind, never to be seen or read.
But all I care about right now, is that you know what I've wrote. It took me ages to accept, and hell, I don't even fully accept it all yet. There's still a part of my brain that hates me. Hates everything about me. But we keep moving on.
We don't ever give up.
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